




The sky is overcast and grey, the cockatoos squawk and land high in the gums, and little Forest stands on the coffee table and gazes out of the window that looks out over these towering trees that border the creek, and watches the antics of life that are happening outside of our cosy woodland home.
The chestnut trees are the last of the deciduous trees to cling to their leaves, and are now a brilliant yellow - some of them finally descending to nourish Mother Earth beneath. Fungi now begin to spring up in every nook and surface around the house. Bright yellows, reds and the more dull but exquisitely formed caps of browns and creams.
This season resonates with me so much. While others are complaining about the early frost, rain and cold, I am loving it all! Mittens, boots and hats are being happily adorned. My toddler boy is dressed in all his lovely hand-knit woolens. Our wood-fire is roaring to warm both our bodies and souls.
Although we still try to spend at least a little time outside every day, the snug of home is where it's at for us right now. We have been sorting and organising and making our home look pleasing and welcoming. We have spent much time in the kitchen creating warming soups and stews. Afternoon tea is becoming a time for some nourishing but delicious treat to greet us after time spent outside in the cold collecting wood or nuts. This week I made rice pudding and Forest gave it the thumbs up with repeated exclamations of 'yummy'! Today I will try my hand at the baked custard recipe in 'Nourishing Traditions'. I am still very much absorbed in the ideas from this book. So much so that I have taken the plunge by eating fish after a lifetime of vegetarianism. This has been a big decision, not taken lightly, that I don't want to go into now, but after much agonising over it (to the point of becoming neurotic!) I have come to a place of peace with the idea of eating meat. My health has been suffering recently and I feel that changing my diet is a very important part of where I need to go to journey back towards robust health.
I made the raw milk cream cheese out of the book. Mainly I did this to get the whey so that I would begin to lacto-ferment. On its own the cheese was very bland, but it did improve in flavour as it aged, and mixed with other things was quite nice. I used the whey to make fermented ketchup - but I have to be honest and say that it tasted awful! Not to be deterred, I plan to try again, but this time play around with ingredients to get a better flavour.
Aside from kitchen tasks, I am enjoying getting stuck into my knitting projects. I am a very slow beginner knitter so no long list of accomplishments to mention in this space, but Forest is getting a nice pair of mittens that are nearly complete, and I have started on the sheep family from 'The Knitted Farmyard'.
I have been off the computer for the last month trying to put all of my energies into recovering from exhaustion. I am pleased to report that things are so much better around here! My health has improved and Forest is sleeping quite well now. It has been a very hard time for us but the dawning of serenity and joy are slowly creeping back into our lives. Part of this process has been to come to terms with the hard facts of being a single mother, and finding a way to communicate and parent with Forest's father. I had hoped for Forest's sake that our lives could be somewhat blended, but this has actually caused
more tension in his life as his mama is repeatedly upset by the interactions. So tomorrow I will drop him off to spend a day with his dad. I know he'll be fine - he is not particularly clingy to me, but I feel so sad about it. This separate life that he will have away from me at such a young age. But this is just how it is and I must make the best of it. Try to enjoy some time for myself and work on projects that are hard to do when F is around.
And so as the nights become longer and we move toward the winter solstice, I praise this beautiful cycle of nature of which we are a part. Forest and I are enjoying our candle light dinners, after which we open the curtain and star gaze when the sky is clear. After his bath we look out at sister moon from our bedroom window shining brightly in the frosty sky, before snuggling into bed for lullabies and slumber. Life is good at the end of this Autumn season...